Counting stars in a black sky before twilight
The sound of night is deafening... Ringing in silence
City lights slowly extinguish rendering the view colorless
Trees sway in the current of the brisk nights breeze
Alone... alone... alone beneath the paper moon
It sits faceless with a brilliance
a reverence once tendered is void of my affections
Because it dares illuminate my sorrow via spotlight
It's a blaring glow is blinding... but it's cold as cross... eye glaring
My mind imagines it to be a single lit locomotive coming for me...
But my broken heart wants to set it ablaze
My weeping does not fall upon it's ears... therefore it has no mercy
So my spite broods of my inability to smite it down from the sky
And in my own frustration I tear a white page from a notebook
I pull a switchblade from my pants and carve a circle from its elongated rectangular shape....
I shout at the moon, toe to toe... face to face...
Fuck you moon for smirking at me,
Damn you for seeing me for what I am... Empty
To Hell with your sarcastic gazes...
You aren't as bright as you look...
I dropped down on my knees stabbing the paper...
and making a few slashes that make up a moonfaced scowl
I pull from my pocket a zippo lighter that says "Peace"
"I dare not make a penitence with you, for I fear you would forsake me like before".
All I wanted was to be Perfectly ME
And you are a constant reminder that the me I am before you shall never see the sun
So I set your ass on fire for keeping me in the dark so long!!!!
So, maybe your flames will light my way with a tenacity to spark embers that do not turn to ash.
I set you on fire because, tonight... before the sun rises
I need to see something more beautiful than your glowing orb
For once I need to feel I have power over the world beyond the stars
I need to be as fiery as the sun....
Take no offense paper moon.... this is a small sacrifice
Please don't take it personal...
Please forgive my desperate heart in this desperate time.
I must feel alive...
As I set fire to the paper moon tonight.
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell....
See you tomorrow in this silence where I dwell.